Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Maybe superglue is a better option.

Everytime someone breaks up, or has a fallout with their lover or what have you, I always seem to be the holder of the stickytape to put it all back together. I say stickytape because its not guaranteed to work, and whilst its not meant to be visible that you've consciously tried to fix it, after a while it begins to be more visible after layers upon layers are added trying to hold it together and after time it begins to yellow.

Anyway, back to what I started with, I'm always the holder of this proverbial stickytape, helping people I'm close with to fix their relationships and generally it works out if its just minor problems and such and only in some circumstances do I find it hard to not even help to give a temporary solution. And I seem to always be able to give people consoling when they're in need of sympathy and such.

I help everyone else with their relationships, but I don't seem to be able to handle my own too well. Actually, thats not the case. Its more what happens before that I dont seem to be able to cope with. I don't know if I'm doing the right thing, I don't know whats going to happen, I don't know if its simply for fun or the spur of the moment to them.

I'm sick of feeling like I move on too quickly, but I dont really. Its more the fact that I've pretty much gotten into relationships cause I feel as if I need attention, I need affection. I havent stopped to think about whether its a good idea or to assess my feelings towards said boy.

Maybe I just over think things, and thats my problem. But I dont think about what I need to think about. I dont feel like I'm moving on quickly, or that I'll move on from this quickly, either. But I feel like I'm getting attached, and I think I'm happy with that, as long as I know its the right thing. I just need a sign, I spose. Cause I'm oblivious to the other party's views on everything.

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