Maybe superglue is a better option.

Everytime someone breaks up, or has a fallout with their lover or what have you, I always seem to be the holder of the stickytape to put it all back together. I say stickytape because its not guaranteed to work, and whilst its not meant to be visible that you've consciously tried to fix it, after a while it begins to be more visible after layers upon layers are added trying to hold it together and after time it begins to yellow.

Anyway, back to what I started with, I'm always the holder of this proverbial stickytape, helping people I'm close with to fix their relationships and generally it works out if its just minor problems and such and only in some circumstances do I find it hard to not even help to give a temporary solution. And I seem to always be able to give people consoling when they're in need of sympathy and such.

I help everyone else with their relationships, but I don't seem to be able to handle my own too well. Actually, thats not the case. Its more what happens before that I dont seem to be able to cope with. I don't know if I'm doing the right thing, I don't know whats going to happen, I don't know if its simply for fun or the spur of the moment to them.

I'm sick of feeling like I move on too quickly, but I dont really. Its more the fact that I've pretty much gotten into relationships cause I feel as if I need attention, I need affection. I havent stopped to think about whether its a good idea or to assess my feelings towards said boy.

Maybe I just over think things, and thats my problem. But I dont think about what I need to think about. I dont feel like I'm moving on quickly, or that I'll move on from this quickly, either. But I feel like I'm getting attached, and I think I'm happy with that, as long as I know its the right thing. I just need a sign, I spose. Cause I'm oblivious to the other party's views on everything.

twenty second of the eleventh

The formal was not quite at terrible as I thought itd be or whatever, I looked fucking shiiiit but it was all good cause I spose I got to see people and socialise. I saw Jemima, Rhyse, Luci, Jade and Rory at Civic Park when I was getting photos, which was very good!
I managed to run up the stairs in heels. To say the least, I was rather proud.
The food was kinda bad. Dessert was so fucking good though. I got the 'Most likely to become a Pornstar award' Aw, yeah thanks 4chan >___> but yeah, honorable mentions to Dorian who came second! hahah.
I didnt end up going to afterparty. I was too sick and lazy so I went home and listened to some good music instead.

Friday I decided to dye my hair a bit lighter with a Colour Experte kit , or something of the like. The base colour didnt work, but the highlights have lightened my hair and I'm actually pretty happy wth the colour it is now! I wish it was longer, bt extensions will cost so much for me cause my hairs pretty damn thick. Oh well, I spose I'll let it grow out.
And now I'm rambling, oh fun!
That night didnt end up going to Acacia Strain, I was pretty devastated to say the least :/ but I went to the loft instead and it was a decent gig, even if the bands werre being late and hence Jono and Jacque's organisation of the show didn't run quite as smoothly as planned.I cant remember the rest of that night, so I spose I'll talk about last night.

Last night, Violence EP launch! I made a right fool of myself to Anthony, I was all 'duuude, you bashed my exboyfriend' and shiook his hand. He was all 'well, I wouldnt really call it bashing haha' but I told him either way, he made him bleed profusely and hospitalised him which is epic.
I met Alex irl! Which made me happy, and he gives awesome hugs, just putting it out there :D
Um, yeah mindblanking again. Cant remember much at all. Hahaha.

Oh well

xo

Pre-Formal Ponderings.

I suppose I should be excited, but I just can't bring mysel to be. I'd rather spend my night sitting here playing Team Fortress 2 and listening to Terror. But I suppose that's just the way I am. Formal photos are in approximately six hours, and I'm too preocupied to get ready. I don't know how to have my hair, and I wish it was not black. I miss blonde hair. Actually, I miss red hair moreso. Hmmm.
I'm going to try and make the most of it though. No afterparty for me, so its times like this I wish I had someone I could just invite over and hang with after the formal. But, I suppose I will just continue with my original thoughts of TF2 and Terror. It sounds pretty damn enticing rather than getting plastered in a park, no offence. Usually I'd be keen for a park party but I spose the fact I'm terribly sick is hindering my sense of fun.

Leave your criticisms elsewhere.

I don't see what pleasure people get out of trying to give you 'advice' with something that its obvious you know how to fix. Leave it, it's not even your business.
I'm not going to just sit aroundand let everyone else control wat I do, how I look. I don't appreciate people criticising my hair. Yes, I know its bad at the moment, but it's fixable. Your input is not appreciated. Okay, thanks.

Goodbye tumblr, hello again Blogspot.

I remember the day I deleted my blogspot and created a tumblr instead. I still don't know why I did it, I spose it was partially cause it seemed to be the way the trend was headed in regards to blogging.
Tumblr is barely even a blog though.
Maybe when I begin my photography again I'll created a new tumblr, but that wont be until atleast January. So anyway, I've decided to start actually blogging and not 'reblogging' and the usual Tumblr related stuff.

Time to start fresh.